I was one of those people living in the tiny humid box of procrastination and fear. I was afraid to walk in my unique power. I was afraid of the future. I used my gifting as a road block because I was unable to see down the road or better yet, what I saw in my mind was too scary. People kept showing up at my proverbial doorstep asking for my gift, my gift with words and I’d show up halfway in the moment and smile in response to the question, “When is the book coming out?”
“Soon,” I’d say. It had a coming-of-Christ effect to it that I fell too much in love with. Soon could be any day and any time, but what I failed to realize is that at least God knows the date of Christ's return. I, on the other hand, didn’t even know the year of my to-be book’s publication. My perception was fogged up. In retrospect, I realize that my hands of goal actualization and focus were crippled. I kept spinning around in tight circles. Remember that box of procrastination and fear is a pretty small space. In retrospect, I was nurturing the limiting belief of my future, fearing that there was nothing else beyond the publication of a collection of poetry. What would I do after? Would the poems keep coming? Then, I preferred living in the expectation of this goal. I was crazy to think that someone else would unearth this treasure buried in my core, brush it off and present it to the world. Crazy. Crazy with fear.
Blind too. There are so many hints in our day-to-day lives that we take for granted. And I couldn’t see half of them if it were not for these two things: people and personal development. As I’ve mentioned before, people kept asking me for this gift. Con.sis.tent.ly. To those people I am ever grateful. You can’t do anything alone, not even your talent. On top of that, it is ideal to windshield wipe your vision of your future and self with ongoing and intentional personal development. I was fortunate to join a community that prioritized this. I was fortunate to leap over the hurdle of completing the manuscript last year and here we are now, about to unleash Tangle to the world. I hope it finds a place in your life and those of your loved ones. I hope this entire experience will nudge you to complete that thing you keep putting off. I hope you have people in your life to show up consistently and demand it. The rest is on you, the personal development and the outcome.
I wish you well,
Rochelle Ward (Faizah Tabasamu)
author of Tangle
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